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how can i feel this way? how is it even possible for me to feel so strongly about something. all my life i’ve gone around, wrapping boys around my finger and cutting them off whenever i pleased. hearing “i love you” and not even being able to say it back. and now? now i hear “i love you” and i don’t have to think to say it back, it’s automatic. it’s like i was born to tell you this, kiss your lips, to hold you close to me. i long for your touch, to hear your voice, to graze your skin against mine. this is the scariest thing i’ve ever felt. you have way too much power over me. i try to pretend like you don’t but you do. dear god you do. this is terrible and i love it.